:H Hi Forum, I hope that I can find friends who can understand, support and perhaps councel me with my pain, as I feel terribly alone right now because although I have a great family, none of them really have the time to support or even understand my pain as it is out of their experience. Although I put on a happy face I feel like a phoney, I really want to talk about me and my pain, but I am smart enough to realise that I come across as boring and self- pitying. When I was working full time as a sale manager, people had time to be with and spend time with me, as I am unable to work because of pain it now feels like no-one has time for me, and I even get the feeling off certain people that I must be 'putting it on' for the sympathy vote. Why? Oh why am I treated like this? I never asked for this to happen to me. God, I even sound self pitying to myself!!! It feels like my feelings are just as important as the pain I am suffering right now.
I have had a discectomy at L5/S1 in 1993, the pain never went, my latest MRI has shown a cyst at the same level, but I am also experiencing ham string cramps all the time, I presume this is connected as after a cramp in either leg, the relevant foot becomes extra numb than normal(it fizzes) on my little toe side. I need to speak to people with the same experiences, God help me, I could talk a friend, family member through Divorce anyday!!! But PAIN, well its a Tabboo subject, at least in my world. Thank you for reading, and Thank you again for any response. Emmergyx