I have had a kidney disease since I turned sixteen and it has always caused me pain. When I turned eighteen the doctors put an intrathecal morphine pump. Now I've had three pumps since then and mind you when a pump dies the whole thing has to be replaced. When I was about twenty-eight I began to have nerve pain and it was so much worse than the kidney pain had ever been. It turned out when ever the doctors changed out the pumps they didn't bother to look at my spine where the catheter was wired to it if they had they could have seen all the damage to my spine. I'm thirty-four and have been on a constant dose of up to 20 mg of morphine a day for about fifteen years and the withdrawal wasn't as bad as I thought in would be but that could have been because I was in the hospital still getting some form of narcotic. I just wanted to know what happens after withdrawal? I've been off the morphine for about two weeks and the last two days I've actually started feeling a little better, but some of the symptoms are still here and I just wanted to know if anyone has ever experienced any of them: everything tastes and smells off, my sense of touch is off too, sometimes it feels my heart is going to beat out of my chest and I still have the cold clammy hands. Are my senses coming back after having been dulled for so long or do I still have a little while before it all stops, I'm not even sure what normal is for me anymore.