After two failed microdiscechtomies Dec 13, and then again on Dec 18, we proceeded with the fusion. I’m coming up on a week post op and struggling with fear and paranoia. I have some nerve pain again in my left sciatic where all the original pain was. I know there was some small scarring, but I suppose I am just scared that I will do something to jeopardize the healing. I am self employed and a single mom and the anxiety of worrying about lost work during December and January has been intense. My clients say they are sympathetic and then push me to work on their projects not even a week after this fusion. If just appreciate anyone to help encourage me and for some buddy time during this journey. Normally I am a super positive person. I have survived cancer 4x and had a lot of rough surgical and medical work done. I feel like God keeps giving me miraculous circumstances and I am so thankful, but I also need some coaching on how to politely but strongly defend this healing process. Thank you! Blessings to all of you on your journeys as well!