Hey guys ! So the PCP that has been treating my pain for 2 years finally had to send me to pain management due to the dea he can no longer do pain management for husband patients . I was nervous anxious excited about going because I thought finally I’d get some answers, treatment plans, some hope. Loved my pcp but it was so hard to get anything done. So I go last Monday and let me tell you it was hell. I get called back I do my pee test and then they get my weight. First let me tell you I am very petite I always have been my whole family is smaller. My dad tall and skinny my mom short and skinny . I’ve never been over 110lbs unless I was pregnant. I have a fast metabolism. This nurse comments on my weight. I brush it off. I’m 5’2 and 102 pounds. We get into the room and she starts asking me questions. What medications I take. This is when I start getting bothered. I tell her adderall. I’ve been on adderall since I was a child. She then says I see two different doses. Yes ma’am my therapist moved me from instant release to xr so instead of taking multiple pills a day I now only take one. She then says oh so you can get skinnier. Ma’am I am a petite person and I was off of it for a few years before because of no insurance and even then I didn’t gain weight nor lose weight that’s just how my body is. Still steady remarks I’m wearing an Alabama bracelet as I am a big Alabama fan that’s where I’m from she starts talking about it saying oh you’re one of those. Didn’t bother me much as I’m used to the trash talk . Then asks what I do where do I work. I tell her I am the assistant manager of a fast food restaurant I’ve been there for 6 years they work with my hours so I can still work due to my kids schedules I felt very judged by my place of work like everyone who doesn’t have a glorious job is trash and that’s how it sounded. The doctor finally comes in and asks me the same questions treats me the same way. I have 4 bulging disks I have cysts on my spine and I have nerve root abnormalities on my thoracic spine. He tells me I don’t need the oxycodone he is giving me a muscle relaxer tanzadine and taking me off of my oxycodone that I’ve been on for 2 years says that I have nothing wrong well if it’s not all I just mentioned then something is wrong because within 2 hours of being at work I’m in agony. I can’t stand or walk without being in excruciating pain after being on my feet for a certain amount of time. Sitting down helps with some relief but even sitting for long periods of time absolutely kills me . My lower back constantly hurts and the worse it gets it moves into my mid and upper back into the top of my butt. It is agonizing radiating aching deep. My husband my kids my coworkers even my customers can see what pain I’m in all the time but a doctor that specializes in this doesn’t see it? Won’t even listen? I left in tears. I can’t even do half the things I need to do in My house or go out with my family and have fun without being in so much pain. The Percocet and ibuprofen I rotate and still doesn’t take my pain away but helps me get through the day until I’m home and I’m winging it . Doing what I can and thank god my husband understands. I’ve come close to quitting the job I’ve been at for 6 years because I can’t handle the pain . I have written out something similar to what I am writing here and I have an appt with a spine surgeon on the 26th and I am going to read it to him along with a timeline of pain because I forget some things when I am at the doctor that I remember once I leave . I need these doctors to listen to me wnd take me seriously this surgeon is my last hope . I can’t believe he shut me down and took me off of my pain meds and haven me muscle relaxers? It’s not muscle pain! All they do is make me groggy and emotional . I can’t even take them unless I am going to bed because I have to function wnd work and take care of my family .