New here to this thread, and I am having issues which I need to speak with someone about, as i don't know anyone who has had this operation, i was hoping to speak my mind and just chat with someone who has similar issues.
I was born with a birth defect which was only picked up when I was 25 (after a year of terrible pain), I had a bone missing resulting in a floating spine my whole life. From scans and tests it was determined that my spine was curving and sinking into my pelvis and a spinal fusion of my L5-S1 was necessary. Surgery was booked and a week later I had my op.
Recovery was not the best time of my life, but compared to other people with similar surgeries i seemed to be doing good pain wise. I stopped my pain meds a month after my op and moved onto CBD oil (different to THC oil) which worked perfect, no need for pain pills and sleeping pills etc.
My life carried on with the odd pain here and there on cold days, and just some days in general.
It is now 5 years later, i am 30 years old, and 3 months ago i hurt my back somehow. I am in constant pain on my lower left side, some days i have tingling in my left leg and the pain seems to be escalating on a daily basis. I have seen a specialist on Friday and will be going to the hospital next week for scans and xrays to see what has happened.
I am currently on a course of Tramedol and Xero which only seems to slightly take the edge off, i am a zombie throughout the day and can't concentrate or focus on anything work related or stuff i like to do. The pain and the realization that my life will be severely affected by all of this is getting me down to the point i don't care for anything anymore. I am afraid that I will end up in a wheel chair or living in constant pain. The thought of having another fusion terrifies me to the point of tears, i feel alone and none of my friends understand what i am going through. I feel like i am constantly talking about my pain now and it kills me to do it but when you are always in pain what else can you do?
I need someone to tell me its all going to be okay, that they've been through the same or similar and its not that bad, but i already know the answer as i am typing.
Thanks for listening