I'm struggling right now working. Luckily I'm working only part time and plan to retire at the end of 2020 but I don't know if I can hold out that long. I sit at a desk using dual screen monitors. My desk includes a stand up work station. I can't find any position comfortable. By the time I get home I'm worn out both mentally and physically. I'm still in recovery mode from my c2-c6 fusion and keep being told it can take up to a year to see significant improvement. The numbness and tingling in my hands is intermittent but the pain in my neck is still awful. My husband thinks I should look into disability. I don't know if its pride or vanity but there are so many others who are worse off than me and they're not on disability. I don't even think I would qualify. I don't like admitting to defeat but that is how I'm seeing myself--defeated.