So i am a little more than 4 months post-op on my surgery. I own my business which i have had for almost 8 years with 6 years of previous exp. in same field. I am married with 5 children an feel like a complete waste of a parent and husband. I have been on food stamps for almost 2 years now after filing for bankruptcy back in 2010. we lost everything. My wife went through depression and now i guess its my turn. I have no college experience and find myself wondering wht the hell happened. I Went from making 70k a year to now barely 20k. I dont even know how i am going to make rent this month. I know i am not the only one going through dificult times but i feel soo alone. the last thing i want to do is cause my family more grief but i have no idea how i am goping to provide a decent life for them. I have never in my life felt so completely hopeless and just wish that i could wake up and it was 5 years ago. Any words of encouragement would be nice.
I wonder if i should go see the doctor for some anti-deppresant medication because i hate feeling this way.