I am at my desk trying to work and all I can think about is curling up in a ball and dying. The pain is unbearable. Trying to hang on till 4:30. Don't know if I will make it. My back is killing me! I have a tens unit on and have already maxed out on my meds for the day. Had heard some good advice from last nights post regarding my having surgery. Thx you guys. I am trying not to give up hear. But it just won't let up. People around me are being sympathetic to the issue but not for long. I noticed that healthy people like to be around healthy people. And if you are constantly reminded of what can happen to you then it can cause some challenges. Luckily I can close the door and keep to myself for a while. And don't get me wrong I am not looking for their sympathy. I could use my mom right about now. Lol.. Oh how my bed sounds so good right now. Venting to this forum is therapeutic too. I hope you guys are having a pain free day. Talk to you soon.