Hello there is had a total spine reconstruction surgery going on 3 years now, wow! T4 - S2. I still go to PT off and on and am in pain all the time. I do not take pain meds, stopped 2 years now. I was afraid of addiction. Although the pain reminds me I am still alive it's depressing and debilitating at times though and I loose valuable family time. I keep saying this is my life now move on but I struggle sometimes with what I can't do. I shouldn't and should focus on what I still can do, when I can anyways.
I am disabled from ever working again and have been struggling with trying to figure out the new me. What is my meaning now and why is it so hard to reinvent myself? I try new hobbies but fail due to what, I don't know. Life at times stinks but it could be worse and so I am now in a place where I can talk about my surgery the before the after and the now. It's been a difficult time but I am a fighter and I will win. I also hope to help others.
I would love it if you at least say hello. Don't be shy to ask questions, I have been through alot and still have a ways to go.
Live, love, laugh, it could always be worse.