Hi folks. My name is Rusty, I'm 57 and a widow. I also have many issues including chronic back pain, COPD, panic attacks and I'm bi-polar. I leave my home as little as possible due to all these issues and have become so isolated since I lost my wife a few years ago that people in my apartment complex are surprised when I do venture out side. I avoid new people and places out of fear of having a panic attack (not just a case of the nerves, I have lost control of basic bodily functions many times in the past and landed in the ER more than once) And between the pain, the COPD, and the mental health issues I haven't been to a Doctor for more than 15 years. I'm in so much pain now though, that I can't even stand up long enough to make a pb and j! I'm at my wits end and I guess I really need a safe place to talk about my pain without people thinking I'm trying to get sympathy or something. I need to be able to talk with others that truly understand what chronic pain is and how it affects every aspect of a persons life. I don't take any medications ( no doctor) so every day is a struggle to even get out of bed, 95% of the time I loose that struggle and just stay in bed because it hurts too much to bother.. Something has got to change, but unless Doctors start making house calls again I'm not sure what can be done. Thanks for reading my story and I hope you are all in far less pain than I am.