Life hard now...

Only 60 years old.,

Live with chronic pain now for a number of years. It has escalated severely in the last year S1 L5 and some other disabilities with stenosis it seems like the only relief I get an app for those few hours that I take some Norco or Tramadol and I can barely get out of bed now..

Now fibro seems like it's kicking my a## all my joints ache...

I try to alternate Norco with Tramadol every 4 to 6 hours it's been seems like it allows me to not abuse as much..

Exercise does help in the morning with a hot tub but just to get up and speak in doing it as a major effort and I also have fibro now with my whole joints just pulsing aching I'm just wore out now. The epidurals help for a while if I got out of the VA pain clinic because I didn't return soon enough so I have to wait to get another epidural for 6 more months. I'm so much now severely depressed..

Began another round of Hep C meds this last month...

Sorry for dump, just sharing out...



  • Hello Jlm86! I just wanted to let you know that you aren't alone. What we go through, on a daily basis, is indescribable. The only people that understand, are the ones that live it. Which is why you are in the right place! We all need to vent, at times! I know it can be so depressing, that's why coming here and sharing your feelings is so important. We are a family. We are here to support each other. Try and keep your head up. 
  • memerainboltmemerainbolt IndianaPosts: 3,636
    Jlm86, you can rant all you want to, we've all done it, several times!!
    But, yes, like Jilly said, you've come to a very good site. Besides all the support, personal experiences and advice from other members, this forum is a wealth of information. Just a click away from articles and videos on anything spine related.
    I've had fibromyalgia for over 20 yrs so i know how you feel. Especially when you have spinal issues, what's causing what to hurt? 
    Have you been given anything in particular for the fibro other than the meds you mentioned? 
    Please keep us posted on how you are doing or if you just want to talk.

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  • I feel like I'm not going to live much longer ..
    The morning is torture , till the meds kick in...

    My back, joints and shooting pain thru my body is incredible..
    I cannot believe I don't have MS or something like that..

    I work at home as analyst, so that is good, but Im hitting the 
    Wall now..

    Used to play golf, workout 4x/week 5am etc.. it's all gone
    I get that small amount of relief with meds, but tolerance and dependance, and being a slave to the MD/pharmacy routine sucks..

    That's it. Going to church now..

  • memerainboltmemerainbolt IndianaPosts: 3,636
    Jlm, you are only 60. Please dont feel that way about your life, you are so young.
    I'm 68 and have been in chronic pain for years, so i understand. And the routine of doctors, meds, tests does wear on you.
    But let's start somewhere, if you don't mind. You said S1 L5 and some other disabilities with stenosis. Do you mind explaining the other disabilities? Have you and your discussed any other options?
    We'll start with that and I hope to hear more about your story. 
    As a side note, I fought the depression too, mostly due to having to give up so much.
    But we'll talk about that later if you'd like.  
  • AkiraAAkira Redlands, CAPosts: 238
    edited 03/20/2017 - 10:52 AM
    This is the place to dump, vent, cry out to the group that truly understands.  I am venting now!  My epidural was a week ago and barely any relief as I sit here with my eyes closed with a heating pad, now ice, took my oxy an hour ago and no relief, come on it should have kicked in by now, looks like I need to double up since the pain is too much. I hope it works!  I haven't eaten all day due to the pain and I know I need to eat.  I've lost close to 40+ plus pounds since my injury 8 months ago.  I've lost my job, my stuff (who cares), my past active life, you all know what I'm trying to convey so no need to elaborate.  I still have my wife and hoping I don't drive her away having to stress her out dealing with me.  The financial impact and the uncertainty of our future.  My wife has been wonderful, even though she's not the nursing attentive type, more of a "man up, suck it up buttercup" type.  So I thread lightly expressing my agony with her since she's sick and tired of hearing it. I can see it on her face.  She tells me I need to get off this site because it is depressing me more, but for many people they just can't comprehend the invisible PAIN. And I mean it when I say that she's been wonderful.  Waiting waiting for the pain to subside at the moment, thanks for giving me a little relief spine-health readers.

    This is where I come for therapy, hoping that someday I can post in the "Good news-success" category of the web site.  
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  • jlm86jjlm86 Posts: 4
    edited 03/24/2017 - 2:02 AM
    i'm in a really dark place... the weather is beautiful and i'm in the basement analyzing data, life has been sucked out of me...
    i went to gym a few times last week,..good feeling...

    i have thoughts you know...  life is too [edit] hard, my family would be better without me..
    my brother died last year, overdose..
    elderly mom is a burden.

    insomnia now of late..
    still go to my aa meetings after many years, my friends are good.

    waiting for epidural , but wondering where it's all going

    best to you all..

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